To Whom It May Concern:

So I end my silence just for you. I truly do hope you enjoy every little bit of it as I am sure you will. It is a shame really. I thought that silence would be the best way to deal with this reoccurring situation of ours but apparently you just do not know how to quit. Therefore, I am here to repeat myself again and maybe add a little bit more with the most likely futile hope that you will get the point.

I will begin by defending myself. I will save everyone the trouble of  reading the backstory again and just explain my side of the situation. I went to Jamaal’s to clean his room and shoot the shit. After being there for awhile, Jamaal tells me that Cody is taking off the afternoon to come hook up the amp. Alright I am going to stop the progression of events to add a few things. One, Cody took off work based on the assumption that I would be there all day and that I did not have other shit planned for the day. Maybe it would have been smart to see what I had on my schedule before just expecting me to hang around all afternoon waiting on an amp to hook up. Moving on to my next point, I left at three because that is what I had planned to do. Jamaal knew that I left at three everyday, so if he expected me to stay longer than that, he is a fool. Furthermore, it is not as if I had much choice in staying as long as I wanted or going back after I had left seeing as I did not have a car to drive. I hit a fucking deer and was out of transportation, so I was depending on other people for transportation. Was I just supposed to tell Ashley to take me to Jamaal’s and hang out for a good couple hours while I help hook up a fucking receiver? It seems awfully rude to make someone drive me to Jamaal’s and then make them sit there bored and uncomfortable for hours especially to do something that could fucking wait. It is not as if Jamaal was being tortured by having to use standard television for a few more days. For Christ’s sake, Cody made it sound like I kept a drink just out of the reach of a thirsty Jamaal. He wasn’t going to die. If you wanted me to help with the amp, you should have checked with me to see if it was good day/time Cody.  Of course, Cody had to bitch about me going to get my books as well because he is a moron sometimes. I was never told that Jamaal expected me to finish hooking it up the next day, and my books for college are just a little more important so fuck off.

Next, I cannot believe that you would even suggest that I take advantage of Jamaal. The only reason you know Jamaal is because Drew and I are so close to him so don’t go acting like I don’t do shit for him. I am always the one who cleans his room, I have babysat the children, and when Dinah was with Grandma in the hospitable, I would go get him food. I have done as much for Jamaal as he would let me do. You can say whatever you want about me but leave Jamaal the hell out of it. You apparently have no idea how close I am to Jamaal. I spend most of my time over there just talking to him. I hardly ever play games anymore because believe it or not I am there to spend my time with Jamaal, not some fucking electronics. You are an asshole for suggesting something so untrue, and what is worse is you know that I don’t take advantage of Jamaal. However, you just couldn’t help yourself because you knew that would get my blood boiling. Well, it did you fucking dick. If you want to make a good argument, at least be fucking factual.

Lastly, instead of worrying about my fucking character, why don’t you take a good long look at your own. What is your problem with Ashley and I? Ever since Kait broke up with you, you have constantly found reasons to bitch about us. You sit up there in your ivory tower judging the way people live their lives as if your life is a real grand one. Well, hate to tell you but I have someone who still loves me, so I must be doing something right. I just want you to tell me what the problem is. I refuse to believe that all this is simply about me not helping you hook up an amp. What is the issue? Really, I want to know. I have worried and stressed over why you always give me a cold shoulder when it comes to Ashley. I would literally try not to talk about her with you around sometimes because you acted like you didn’t care or didn’t want to listen. Yet, you claim that it is ridiculous to think that you hate her and even say that you have accommodated her. How have you ever accommodated her? You complain about our “schmoopiness” and you say I have my head up her ass. Which one of those is accommodating of her? Maybe I am crazy for thinking that a good friend would be supportive of our good relationship. Instead, I have a friend who is praying for the day we crash and burn just so he can say “I told ya so!”. Do you not see that you are pushing people away by being so bitter? Not only me, I am talking about Garic as well. He really seems torn up about the fact that you never talk to him, yet you don’t mind telling him how to live his life. How much more do you really know about the world than the rest of us? What because you fucked up your chance at love, you have the right to tell everyone else how to live? I just do not understand it. Why would want your best friend to have his heart broken just for the sake of being right? That is just downright vain and selfish. I know I spend most of time with Ashley but that doesn’t mean that she is the only person I care about. I care about my parents, you, Jamaal, my brother, my grandpa, and the list goes on. If I didn’t care about you, I wouldn’t put up with the shit you constantly give me. The amp thing is just not as big of a deal as you are making, so I have to believe there is some underlying problem. So what is it?

P.S. Cody, thanks for subscribing to my blog lol. Your support is much appreciated.