Another Once in a Blue Moon Post

I am back here on WordPress once again to make my once in a blue moon blog post because I am terribly bored as I wait for Ashley to get off of work. I haven’t done a damn thing since she left for work besides watch Sean of the Dead on my computer and browse the web. It’s one of those days so far. I haven’t even brushed my teeth which is kind of gross, but I would have to go all the way upstairs to accomplish that sort of goal. Needless to say, I’m not up for the treck to the top of the stairs so fuck it. Anyway, I don’t really have much to talk about so I’ll just randomly sort through some of the past as I think it all up.

I haven’t been practicing the guitar as much as I would like to, which is every day. Instead, I only play it like once a week if I am lucky. Thus, it is not very shocking at all that I haven’t gotten much better. I’m still working on it though and I will have plenty of time on my hands when I move off to Chanute for my higher learning. Then I should be able to practice extensively at least five out of the seven days in a week. That should speed up the improvement process I would think.

While that is all dandy and shit, I am still not sure I am ready to head off to college for a few reasons. First off, I don’t know when I’m supposed to get my books or where my classes are located on the campus. When the hell are you supposed to get your books to go to college? Do you have to set an appointment or do you just show up and ask “where’s my shit”? Although, Brenda (Ashley’s mom) is also going to Neosho County for a medical assistant degree or some shit and we start school on the same day, which is kinda fuckin weird, and I bet I could probably go with her when she gets her books and looks around campus. I think that last sentence might be a run-on sentence or grammatically incorrect.

The second reason I don’t really want to go off to receive more education is that I’m going to have to leave everybody I know to go to a place where I won’t know anyone. I suppose I might occasionally see Brenda but that does not really help. Sure, I am going to come back home on the weekends, but I can’t spend time with everybody in the span of a weekend. I especially will see less of Cody, Drew, and Jamaal. I will spend most of my time with Ashley because she will need me more. Honestly, I will need her just as much. The problem, however, is that I already feel like it annoys the three mentioned above that I spend so much time with her and not them. Oh well, I am sure it will all sort itself out in the end. Even if I do figure it all out, I’ll still have to make at least one friend while at college and that sounds like way to much work. I’ll probably just be a loner.

In other news, Cody found out from his ex, the one that broke his heart, that basically the reason they broke up is now moot. Not only that, but she didn’t hint that she wanted him back or if she even considered the idea that might get back together. I think it all seems kind of fucked up to break up with someone, leave them heartbroken, and then tell them that the reason they left doesn’t exist anymore. I’m not an expert but that kind of behavior seems like it could be destructive. I’m sure Kait has her reasons for doing what she did but I can’t wrap my mind around it all. I don’t think that she was completely honest about why she left Cody in the first place. Yeah, they did seem to be moving seperate ways but she could have at least tried to make it work before she cut and run. I just feel like there had to be some other motive for the split. If she is not going to give Cody another chance then I wish she would tell him that, because Cody is one confused motherfucker right about now. He needs the door to either be closed or open, but not any of this half open/shut bullshit. In other words, give the man some fuckin closure. I just find it rude to leave somone wondering and hoping for no reason. On the other hand, if she does want him back then hint at it. Cody isn’t confident enough to make a move. He is way to scared that he is going to come out looking like an ass and I don’t blame him, because I would do the same damn thing. I don’t want anybody to get me wrong. I think Kait is a good person and I don’t think she is intentionally trying to confuse or hurt Cody. I am just half-hazardly throwing some of my opinions out there.

Well, that will do it for me. Ashley is back and she brought me a surprise. The anticipation is overwhelming me so I must call it quits for now. I will back when I damn well please.